August 5, 2009

Treatment has absolutely taken a huge toll on me. I feel like I cant do anything. It takes so much effort to fold a load of clothes or change a diaper or walk through Walmart for a few things, if I can even do that. I am struggling pretty bad physically and emotionally. I do not remember the last time I sat and had a meal with my family here at the house. It's so hard to eat. I just ask of you all to please continue to pray for us. I am so blessed to have such a support team. Every bone in my body aches and the tears wont stop the past 3 or 4 days. The anger is starting to hit. Not angry at anyone just angry. I know I need to keep fighting. Well on a lighter note, I have forgotten two things through all of this: what it's like to feel good, and what it's like to have hair. You think, hair? You've had that for 24 years how could you forget! You do! I sure do get ready a whole lot faster now though! Love yall!

August 4, 2009

Today was day 19 of radiation. And i am definately feeling the effects from it all. The last 4 or so days have been incredibly hard. Like Aunt Aprile said I went to the hospital for bad dehydration. I cant eat much at all and keep running to the restroom all day and all night. It's getting rough. Rougher than i have experienced so far. Emotionally it's terrible. Yes, i do cry often. I try to remain strong but it's hard to not cry. I havent been able to eat a meal since Saturday and i am nauseated and make runs to the bathroom all day. I have began to burn from the radiation kinda bad. I know it can be worse but it hurts somethin terrible. I am sorry for being a downer but i just want to keep it real with how i feel and what's going on. I am so thankful for the family and friends and their support. I read the comments you all leave and they touch my heart so much. My Barrett is so wonderful! I love him so much! It's unreal the love you have for your child! I have been so upset lately about not having the energy or strength and stuff to fully take care of him. It breaks my heart. But I know I am in this for him! In it to beat it! Here are a few pics of Mr.Barrett. I just love the way he looks in his cap! and the other pic is of him in the super cute pollo from Aunt Aprile! I love you guys!

August 3, 2009

Kim went into the hospital late Sunday night, August 2, 2009 and was released late Monday afternoon, August 3, 2009. She went in for dehydration since it is hard for her to eat and keep things in. Her doctor admitted her into S&W and gave her one day off of radiation. She has seven days left of radiation and will continue starting again in the morning, Tuesday, August, 4 2009. The radiation with the chemo really hit her hard but she is getting through it. Pray for her to continue to have strength and the will to fight, it is getting harder at this time.

Kimmie - Keep your fight for Barre, so you can hear many of his laughs...

Barre is still growing and started laughing out loud! He does bring sunshine to Kim especially now that he is smiling more too. Thank goodness Kim's mom is able to take care of Barre when Kim is at chemo, radiation or unexpectedly going in the hospital. Pray for the family as well so we can all be strong and help Kim through this.

Thank you all so much for checking on the blog and keeping Kim and Barre in your prayers. And to those of you that have joined and leave messages, THANK YOU, it means so much and helps more than you know... Love to all - Aprile

July 16, 2009

Today was day 7 of radiation therapy. 18 more to go. It hasnt been rough just been really exhausted all day long everyday. After this last chemo, last week, I have began to despise water. LOL..it's weird too because anyone who has been around me much knows I drink lots of water and love water! It's so nasty now! Thank you Crystal light lemonade!
Well my Barrett now is about 10 1/2 pounds! He's so good looking and keeps changing everyday! He's started coo-ing more and smiling while awake! He gave me the cutest sweetest smile today; it melted my heart! I'm not going to lie, he is such a joy to have around but it is hard at times. It's hard when I'm so tired and run down, naseaus, or just on days that I'm down in spirits and hurting emotionally. But he is what I'm fighting for. I'm fighting for me and him. He is my world and I wouldn't have it any other way. I feel so blessed everyday to have him in my life. I'm going to try to post now a few times a week. Thank you all who continue to pray for us! We love you! And thank you Aunt Aprile who created this blog for us! You truly are an amazing person in every way! And if any of you would like a "Fight for Barre" bracelet just let me know!

July 15, 2009

BARRE PUTTING HIS BABY TOES IN THE SAND ON THE BEACH!!!

July 15th

Hi Everyone! Well July is just flying by so fast! Barre had is first road trip to Port Lavaca for a family wedding! The pictures posted are of him and his mom Kim on their much needed get away!

Barre continues to grow as you can see and is such a good baby and a joy to his mom! Kim is still doing her chemo and her radiation started last week. Radiation is everyday for a few minutes for the next 4 weeks! Kim continues to amaze us with her strength to fight this. She has her ups and downs as well as good and bad days, and that is okay. The main thing is that she pulls herself up and goes forward; your my hero KIM!!!

Pray for her to keep focused on the fight for herself and Barre! Pray that she will continue to have the heart and strength to pull herself up on the hard days and that God will grace her with his love. WE love you Kim and when you need, just take our strength...it's here for you!

July 1, 2009

Kim and Barre are doing great! As you can tell Barrett is filling out and almost weighs 9 pounds!

Kim has a break from her chemo for another week or so and then radiation starts soon, but for now she is feeling good and enjoying Barrett! Keep her in your prayers to stay strong and for Barrett to keep growing strong and continues to be her inspiration!

FED EX just delivered the bracelets! They look great!