August 30, 2009

Here are a few pictures from last week when we got Barre's pics done professional. They all turned out so good!! He was such a good boy while we were changing him many times and changing props and backgrounds; he just went with the flow. He's such a good lookin boy!! We also had his 4 mth checkup last week and he weighs 13lb 5oz and is 24 in long! He's gettin so big! His smile just melts me..it's contagious. He laughs in his sleep often and it cracks me up!

Well I go in to the hospital for internal radiation tomorrow morning at 6am. I have to go into surgery for them to place some tools and then I will go into a private room for anywhere from 24 hr to 48 hr so they can administer internal radiation throughout the day..just another part of my treatment plan. If you are unsure how internal radiation works, what it's all about, and you are curious, look up either internal radiation or brachytherapy..it's too in depth for me to get into it on here. I had 5 days of external radiation all last week and I am feeling the side effects from it this weekend. It's definately no fun, especially since before that I was getting my energy back up and loving food again. I'm not sure what the plan is after this. I think it's some more external radiation and possibly another internal radiation. Staying strong for my Barrett.

Thank you all so much for the support and prayers. I love you all. Thanks for continuing to help me during this battle.

August 21, 2009

I love this little boy so much!

Barre with his G-Nanny

Barrett's first girl friend, Miss Kinzee

My good-lookin boy!

Barrett is 4 months old!! Wow, how time flies! He is baby talkin so much now and smiling all the time. And he's laughing often..sometimes he laughs without even smiling or even funnier he will laugh in his sleep. He is definately my world. He's getting so big; he's around 13.5 lbs. We will find out for sure next week at his 4mth check-up. He isnt rolling over yet but I bet it wont be long, even though he does not like bein on his tummy at all. He recently started eating cereal and loves it so much! Then we added applesauce to it and he loves that too! He is getting so much personality! And a lil temper too LOL.. Well, I am doing okay. Better. I have started eating healthier and have cut out certain foods from my diet and that has seemed to help me feel a little more energized and a bit stronger physically. I am also putting a few pounds back on which is nice. The plan so far for treatment is radiation all next week and then in a few weeks internal radiation. I know the Lord is here for me and that's what is giving me strength, besides Barre :) and my great family and friends!

August 20, 2009

JUST WANTED TO POST A FEW PICS FROM ABOUT A MONTH AGO WHEN MY DADDY, SISTER CRYSTAL, AND HER SON COLLIN CAME TO VISIT ME AND BARRETT. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN AND CANT WAIT TO SEE THEM AGAIN!

August 18, 2009

I had lab work drawn yesterday to see if my counts, WBC, RBC, platelets, etc. are high enough to continue radiation therapy. The radiation doc's nurse called today to tell me it's all fine and that I need to go in tomorrow to see the doc and continue radiation. I find out tomorrow if I am just going to do the 5 treatments I missed or if we are going to do more..basically the new game plan. I am having a super tough day emotionally. I am weak physically, keep losing weight, have no appetite, have no energy, keep running to the restroom several times a day, and feel sick to my stomach. I am trying to be positive. I am blessed to have so many people who care and who are praying. Thank you all! Love yall!

YEAH!!! Kim got released from the hospital today! She still has to take it easy since her platelets are still low. She starts back radiation on Monday, August 17, 2009...UGH

Kim was really strong and got through everything; very proud of you Kimmie! Stay strong and keep God first! Many love you and are praying for you...

Barre and Kim

Just got back from Temple and Kim is trying her best to eat, but it just doesn't stay with her long, so frustrating for her. Her infection is in her colon and she is on an antibiotic IV. She drinks alot of water and does enjoy her sweet tea and we will bring it to her all day long if that is what she wants! :)


As you can see we had to wear mask and clean really well with antibacterial hand wash. They suggested no visitors but Kim really doesn't like the idea of being alone all day and night in the hospital room, so they allowed us to stay all day. She looked good considering the discomfort she is in and we talked alot and took naps together too! She managed to laugh some which made me so happy to see that, she is fighting to get better. Then she wanted to see Barre so her mom brought him in and as you can see he brought a lot of sunshine to the room!


Please continue ALL the prayers to keep her strong physically and mentally no matter what this disease throws her way. And pray for her mom, Karen taking care of Barre and Kim, and pray for our family and all those that are caring for her and Barre... It is appreciated!

Kim was admitted back into the hospital this afternoon. Her white blood-cell count is extremely low and she has been running a fever. So they stopped the radiation again and will be doing some x-rays and more test to see what is going on. She isn't feeling so good and hasn't eaten much all week. Pray that she will gain her strength back and that her body will be able to fight this infection and she will get stronger soon! I will be going to Temple to spend time with her tomorrow. Thanks for all the prayers...

August 5, 2009

Treatment has absolutely taken a huge toll on me. I feel like I cant do anything. It takes so much effort to fold a load of clothes or change a diaper or walk through Walmart for a few things, if I can even do that. I am struggling pretty bad physically and emotionally. I do not remember the last time I sat and had a meal with my family here at the house. It's so hard to eat. I just ask of you all to please continue to pray for us. I am so blessed to have such a support team. Every bone in my body aches and the tears wont stop the past 3 or 4 days. The anger is starting to hit. Not angry at anyone just angry. I know I need to keep fighting. Well on a lighter note, I have forgotten two things through all of this: what it's like to feel good, and what it's like to have hair. You think, hair? You've had that for 24 years how could you forget! You do! I sure do get ready a whole lot faster now though! Love yall!

August 4, 2009

Today was day 19 of radiation. And i am definately feeling the effects from it all. The last 4 or so days have been incredibly hard. Like Aunt Aprile said I went to the hospital for bad dehydration. I cant eat much at all and keep running to the restroom all day and all night. It's getting rough. Rougher than i have experienced so far. Emotionally it's terrible. Yes, i do cry often. I try to remain strong but it's hard to not cry. I havent been able to eat a meal since Saturday and i am nauseated and make runs to the bathroom all day. I have began to burn from the radiation kinda bad. I know it can be worse but it hurts somethin terrible. I am sorry for being a downer but i just want to keep it real with how i feel and what's going on. I am so thankful for the family and friends and their support. I read the comments you all leave and they touch my heart so much. My Barrett is so wonderful! I love him so much! It's unreal the love you have for your child! I have been so upset lately about not having the energy or strength and stuff to fully take care of him. It breaks my heart. But I know I am in this for him! In it to beat it! Here are a few pics of Mr.Barrett. I just love the way he looks in his cap! and the other pic is of him in the super cute pollo from Aunt Aprile! I love you guys!

August 3, 2009

Kim went into the hospital late Sunday night, August 2, 2009 and was released late Monday afternoon, August 3, 2009. She went in for dehydration since it is hard for her to eat and keep things in. Her doctor admitted her into S&W and gave her one day off of radiation. She has seven days left of radiation and will continue starting again in the morning, Tuesday, August, 4 2009. The radiation with the chemo really hit her hard but she is getting through it. Pray for her to continue to have strength and the will to fight, it is getting harder at this time.

Kimmie - Keep your fight for Barre, so you can hear many of his laughs...

Barre is still growing and started laughing out loud! He does bring sunshine to Kim especially now that he is smiling more too. Thank goodness Kim's mom is able to take care of Barre when Kim is at chemo, radiation or unexpectedly going in the hospital. Pray for the family as well so we can all be strong and help Kim through this.

Thank you all so much for checking on the blog and keeping Kim and Barre in your prayers. And to those of you that have joined and leave messages, THANK YOU, it means so much and helps more than you know... Love to all - Aprile